Not my friend

It's a crime that you happened to me.
Nevermind, I was so eager to please.
You took my body, now look in my face.
You never bothered to know my ways.

At times I feel you creeping up
why didn't I manage to make a clean cut?
You cling to my mind again and again.
Have I been fighting you in vain?

You made it so easy
to fall apart completely.
You left me to die,
but I have survived.
Alone.
A heart of stone.

Damn it, you are not my friend!
You showed me how stranded I am.
With no trace of self-esteem left,
I managed to clean your fucking mess.
Now able to stand strong I rise,
with no forgiveness in my eyes.

-Ich-