Lucky

It's spring again, we are on fire!
Stick around and I'll take you higher.
You fit me like the proverbial glove,
can't stop falling deeper into your love.

Could it be 
that you and me 
just for once
are the lucky ones?

Everybody told me love was blind
But seeing you just blew my mind.
And after all these years it still feels so fine
like falling in love for the very first time.


Time by time, the stars align,
boy and girl meet by great design:
Yes, it can be 
that you and me
just for once
are the lucky ones!


-Für meinen Schatz, ich liebe Dich!-

Nothing left

I remember it like yesterday,
the dream in my eyes to light my way. 
And that smile on my face.
God, I'm missing those days.


I forgot what really got in the way.
Maybe the sun should take the blame
cause it wouldnt shine on me,
the rain made me get down on my knees.


I rhyme up things that are poetic at best.
Make believe there was a time that I wasn't like the rest.
Now I'm leaving this all behind,
and there is nothing gonna change my mind.


Stop slowing me down, stop holding me up.
Here I stand, enough's enough.
What can I do but make this vow
for there's nothing left for me here now.

For now I finally see
all I ever lost, was me...

Foolish heart

My heart so weak

wants to hold and keep

doesn't want to let go

of his kindred soul.

I push him away then draw him near

so full of love and full of fear.

Oh my foolish foolish heart,

you let temptation play its part.

I play my game and I play it well,

but over again I get dragged to hell.

I call the fire but can I deal with the flames?

That's the dangerous thing with those games.

There are rules I guess I won't ever learn,

cause where there's fire someone's bound to get burned...

Out of bounds

Well, there was this time 

when I drank a little wine

and gave in to you like I never should

even though we both knew I would.

For a short time it was good for me,

I felt as happy as could be,  

but now I walk on a hot tin roof,

avoiding and yet wanting you...

Your company is bad for me

so get back to where we used to be.

Just keep your hands to yourself,

I sure have had enough of your help.

And we both know that I can

and will not stop to give a damn...

But babe, though I still want you around

listen, by now I'm out of bounds!

Ikebana

Wer liebt das Schöne auf der Welt?
Sanft, wie Tau, der auf Blüten fällt.
Warm, wie Wind am Sommertag
Weich, wie der Schnee, der im Winter lag.

Wer schätzt mich, weiblich wie ich bin?
Selbst Mutter, Liebende und Kind.
Ich bin nicht laut, ich will nicht schrein,
meine Welt ist leise, zart und fein.

Die Nähe und Wärme, die ich gebe,
schützt, heilt und feiert das Leben.
Und es ist gut so wie ich bin,
das Yang gibt dem Ying erst seinen Sinn.

Also, Du laute und egoistische Welt:
Ich lebe so wie es mir gefällt.
Nein, ich stimme nicht ein
in Dein Jammern, Rennen und Schrein!

Wasser

Feuer ist einfach nicht meins.
Was habt Ihr gegen Wasser und Eis?
Eis konserviert, es lindert Schmerz.
Wasser kommt vom Himmel, es lebt in meinem Herz.

Ja, dies ist mein Element
weil ohne Wasser die Erde verbrennt.
Und nichts lebt, nichts sich regt
weil ohne Wasser einfach nichts geht.

Es nährt und liebt Dich, so wie ich,
die nährend und liebend und weiblich ist.
Sanft und zart fliesst es dahin
doch wenn die Flut kommt, dann rat ich Dir: Schwimm!

Denn Wasser ist nicht sanft allein,
es kann auch wütend und brausend sein.
Wasser hat alles, was das Leben gibt
drum lieb ich das Wasser so wie ich das Leben lieb.

Und Ihr, die Ihr das Feuer vergöttert,
immer den Sturm sucht und das Gewitter.
Schaut mit offenen Augen in die Welt
ist Feuer wirklich die einz'ge Macht, die gefällt?

One night

Tension in the night.
So wrong and yet so right.
As my smile meets your eyes,
we get devoured by the fires.
And let go of all control,
like animals at the watering hole.

Kisses, heat and sweat.
No time to reach the bed.
The air is rich and dense,
I feel you so intense, so tense.
Our bodies, entangled and entwined,
feel how this night makes sanity blind.

You? I? We! stop to think
within just a moments' blink.
There's just the heat, you, now
no questions of why or how.
Just us, no him, no her
inside this feverish blurr.
In this oh so frantic tumble,
all thoughts crash down and crumble.

But as it fades, the moment's lust,
like ghosts they rise up from the dust.
A menacing shadow in between
the 'we' that you and me had been.
Till both, shame and uncertainty
seperate the you from the me.
Until there's nothing left of us
but one night of frantic lust...

Faded away

Oh, how I understand you now
your desperately whispered vow
to never dare and trust anyone
and why you've become what youve become

It's hard to stay healthy and whole
for such a kind and fragile soul
when the world in which you live
just swallows what you have to give

But your eyes, they know
the darkness in my soul
they reveal what you couldn't say
your silent screams as your mind slipped away

Yes, this world was never dedicated to
a spirit as frail and beautiful as you.
It made your bright blossom fade so slow
and now it lies crushed on the virgin snow...

Bleed

How twisted can one relationship be?
Thank God that you reminded me
of why I am so sick inside
and why you just never feel right.

You really thought your words
should have hushed the hurts
but darling, I'm not dumb.
I still remember what you've done.

All these scars I bear
do itch and are still there
right beneath my skin
where you have always been

So don't you dare
to ask me to care.
For there is no way
you'll be more than a play.

I enjoy you wanting me
and your enticing fantasies.
I love to make you watch
but I'll stay always out of touch.

I show you what you'll never get
and watch you suffer knowing that.
I want to see you bleed and all
for revenge gets sweeter the more you crawl.

Depression

To stand outside your virtue,
no one can ever hurt you.
or so they say.
But hurt will find a way...


And you already know,
how the story will go.
She crawls into your window,
just hides inside the shadow.
And even though you're dreaming,
she's unlocked the meaning
that sometimes the dreams inside your brain
can kill the soul and leave the pain.

My world

I invite you to a world
inhabited by a little girl
where there is no such thing as time
just take the pill and drink the wine

and that little girl
inside her scary world
has locked herself inside the closet
to fight the monsters under her bed

and though she keeps up her vigilence
every ounce of innocence
is ripped to bits and shreds
by the monsters in her head.


and just like in the books on your shelves
the girl becomes a monster herself
so if you trust your state of mind
just enter and see what you will find!

Cinnamon

My life is cinnamon
like the dream I'm living in.
I am oh so happy,
as happy as a girl can be.

Watch me in my suburb mansion,
my husband is so fucking handsome
and loves to park his aston marten
right in front of our big green garden.

The sun sparkles on my gems
when I'm barbecuing with my children and friends.
I love hiking in the Hamptons, jogging on the beach,
pilates and zumba lessons just in walking reach.

Watch me on my charity events,
talking rich men out of dollars and cents.
They buy so many sparkling drinks
as sparkling as their wedding rings.

And watch me in their swimming pools
the water keeps me nice and cool.
In my expensive Gucci bikini,
sipping on my cold martini.

But in case that I get bored,
I need to be loved and adored.
So come a littler closer, and be
my random toy, the next to fuck me...

Lose control

I'll never let you see
the secret side of me
I keep it caged
but I can feel its rage

That dark part I keep
Hid under lock and key
Cause if I let her out
she'll tear me up and break me down

But the walls have worn so thin
how long can I hold her in?
She's scratching on the walls
In the closet, in the halls
Hiding underneath my bed
In my body, in my head

There's no escape for me
No one can hear me scream
Can she really be

just deep inside of me?

God save my soul

I'm gonna lose control...

Doesn't matter

Yesterday he broke it to me

that I had just been too blind to see

what he was really all about

too precluded by my doubt

said that I never knew him at all

if I thought that for me he didn't fall

that I couldn't have really believed

he'd think to be better off without me

he called me foolish to buy him claiming
he wouldn't be thinking about me, craving
so many things he did conceal
that he left me no room to find out what I feel

I thought I knew the truth but I was wrong
It doesn't matter, for the moment passed on.
We can't undo what lead us to this place
So let's set it to rest and go on with our ways...

Lost in the sin

My skin burns with my deep craving for

your hands on my body to unlock that door 

Let me feel your heart on my breast,

for in these moments I know that I'm blessed

I'll always answer your call to me. 

I'll always dance to your tempting beat. 

I couldn’t  if I wanted to

defy and deny the touch of you.

I only feel free

when you hold on to me.
Your skin on my skin
I get lost in the sin...

So right

Hold me tighter—it’s not too hard. 
I can't wait to play my part.

As we lose all sense of time,

your eyes are always seeking mine.

They flame up burning as you see 

the look on my face once you're entering me. 

When you are so perfectly mine,

you keep my darkest fears in line.

Before, we never felt whole,

just two lost halves of one soul. 

Until our lips dared that first kiss.

Until our bodies joined like this...

Butterfly chaser

The night falls,
the flesh calls.
Makes me the butterfly chaser,
the endorphin racer.

Wanting the rush,
that sweet red flush
across my cheek
as your eyes I seek.

Yes, I want to,
need to
feel the would you,
should you
of the moment,
that hovering scent
as your skin brushes mine
for the first time.

I enjoy the warmth that radiates
like that first glass of wine in my veins,
energizing my toes and limbs,
'till my whole body humms with silent hymns.

'Till it drowns out the music, the world, and time.
'till nothing's left but these lazily fluttering lashes of mine.
And the stuttered drag of your thumb down my cheek,
that makes my stomach jump and knees go weak.

As you brush my flushed flesh with your van Gogh strokes,
you let me suffocate in your fires' smoke,
and let me drown within your burning flames,
while you watch from the corner with your bottle of rain.

And when I've held on as long as I can,
when both, my screaming body and brain
long for so much more of you
and nothing but your touch and taste will do,
I'll give in to your poisoning dew
I'll finally give in to you...

-Ich-

Free to live

There I was, walking in the wrong direction
'till I could barely recognize my own reflection.
Scared of love, scared of trust,
scared to feel, scared of lust,
scared of life alone,
I lost my sense of home.
Playing it safe right from the start
with walls around to hide my heart.

But there's no use in protecting your soul
life's just something you can't control.
Hidden away, you grow cold and still,
protected, but frozen in the chill.
Trying to save me, I lay low,
but now it's time to let it go.

Don't know what happened in the end,
but I guess I'm ready to trust again!
I can feel the time to move on,
stayed hidden in fear for much too long.
Tiptoeing out of my dark cave,
I carefully sniff out this life I craved.

After all this time I've learnt
that I'll survive getting burned.
No matter when or where or how,
yes, I can dare to shout it out loud!
Here I am, ready to give!
Free to dance, to love and to live!

The saint's desperate fight

The saint within the sinner

a voice that gets thinner and thinner

the sinner's lost her nerve

and this is just what I deserve.

Unable to face the dark,
there's pain so familiar and close to the heart.
Unable to bear the walls in between,
The saint desperately tries to come clean.

'I know we can make it out alive,
together we are strong to fight!'
'Stay with me, you're all I have left

you're my silver lining, my breath!'

Clutching the path that leads to nowhere

she starts to try breathing thin air

Still struggling and prone to drown

she can't let go of the hand that holds her down...

-Ich-

Fight, scratch and bite

I take a breath, lets begin!

I'll start the fight that you won't win.
I've had enough to step through that door,
I don't care 'bout you no more.

Now you'd better run for cover
you set the seed that made the world colder.

Cause all in all you are no good, 

I hope you cry like you should.

So, here we go, does it hurt?
I enjoy to see you crawling in the dirt

For I still remember your twisted smile
as I lay before your jaded eyes.

Me, I'll never be able to leave this place,
I'm stuck here for the rest of my days.

-Ich-

Recovered my soul

Look what you have made of me,

damn, you never tried to see!

You hurt me when I needed you,
left me lonely and abused.
Taught me that my feelings were wrong
and I believed you for so long.

But all this is long over now.
You lost the power to take me down.
Nothing but a self-absorbed child,
nothing but egoism run wild,
not worth being saved you from yourself,
how could you dare ask me for help???

I cannot change what happened then,
but I will be standing in the end.

Though physically, I'll still be there

don't believe I'll ever care.

Sometimes it seemed useless to fight
but now there are angels by my side.
Who bothered to dig beneath the rust
and taught me how to love and trust.

Though I know you'll always be
the darkest and loniest part of me
my life finallly feels whole
in the end I recovered my soul.


-Ich-

Queen of Emptyness

You are the empty queen

pretending to be anything

happy, interested or bored
a perfect facade to be adored
and no question ever reaches your head
because what you want you always get

Do you believe in fear?
I know it's always here. 

Do you believe in love?

Then why do you push and shove?
You often dream while being awake,

but never believed in things you can't break,

and never trusted anyone you can't tame.

But now I finally know your name.

I pity your lonely fate

filled with insecurity and hate.

A story so empty and sad,
you wasted all you ever had.

I guess this is what you earn
when you are unwilling to learn...
And still I can see on your shelf
nothing but lies to sell yourself...

-Ich-

Decision

Do we really want to be just friends?

Stop spending these precious nights again?

I know it’s never safe for us,
this life has no room for our lust.
And though danger never rests,
I can't stop asking what comes next.
If soon we'll be able to sneak away...
Damn it, I know one day we'll have to pay!

You, you are not ashamed,
to you, this is still all the same.
But I'm slowly devoured by my guilt,
watching my self-fulfillling prophecy get fulfilled...
Cause too frightened to take heed,
I might fail to destroy suspicion's seed.

But things between us are getting worse,
the more intense it grows, the more it hurts.
So, no I am not made of stone,
but I'll have to make this decision alone...

-Ich-

Just friends

When will we get the time to be just friends?
when will things return to what they were then?

Damn, how I want to touch you
need to feel you through and through
and this feeling just gets worse
oh how unfulfilled desire hurts...

It's only dangerous when caution's at rest,
so I'll stay sleepless, thats for the best.
Yet my thoughts go on and on
asking when we'll be alone...

No, I am not ashamed
for you and me, we're still the same.
But I know the guilt would kill you,
the pain in her eyes if she ever knew.

So we need to find the time
to get back to reason and rhyme.
We'll get through this shit together
this desire just won't live forever.

Sooner or later we'll manage to be friends
and just enjoy each others company again...

-Ich-